Prophet and psalmist, apostle and saint have encouraged me to believe that I may in some measure know You. Therefore, I pray, whatever of Yourself You have seen to disclose, help me to search out as treasure more precious than rubies or the merchandise of fine gold; for with You I will live when the stars of the skies are no more and the heavens have vanished away and only You remain. - A. W. Tozer
Who am I to complain about this amazing journey God has put me on? I don't know what my ministry is going to look like, but I can guarantee you it would be nothing without the experiences I will have. Without the pain and misery I'm experiencing, and will experience. I wouldn't really know what I was talking about. I've been waiting for this answer that's going to take away my suffering, when I really haven't done anything about my suffering, save complaining.
I keep trying to make a nice little lesson for getting up every day, and pushing through the pain, but the fact is, I don't have one. Three times, I've deleted a huge paragraph. I guess that goes along with my other point: I'm going through this pain so I can guide other people later in life. I guess that's my little motivation that gets me through my day. The idea that Jesus has been calling me so strongly for the past 9 months, because He has something to teach me, so I can serve Him. As much as I hate to admit it, the crap that I'm feeling is totally an answer to my prayers. To not live for myself, but to live for Him.
PS, this past episode of the Office was AM-ZA-ZING!! Totally just broke that nice mood, but don't care. I need some happiness in my life. I laughed very hard.
PPS, w00t w00t for take-home finals!
Who am I to complain about this amazing journey God has put me on? I don't know what my ministry is going to look like, but I can guarantee you it would be nothing without the experiences I will have. Without the pain and misery I'm experiencing, and will experience. I wouldn't really know what I was talking about. I've been waiting for this answer that's going to take away my suffering, when I really haven't done anything about my suffering, save complaining.
I keep trying to make a nice little lesson for getting up every day, and pushing through the pain, but the fact is, I don't have one. Three times, I've deleted a huge paragraph. I guess that goes along with my other point: I'm going through this pain so I can guide other people later in life. I guess that's my little motivation that gets me through my day. The idea that Jesus has been calling me so strongly for the past 9 months, because He has something to teach me, so I can serve Him. As much as I hate to admit it, the crap that I'm feeling is totally an answer to my prayers. To not live for myself, but to live for Him.
PS, this past episode of the Office was AM-ZA-ZING!! Totally just broke that nice mood, but don't care. I need some happiness in my life. I laughed very hard.
PPS, w00t w00t for take-home finals!
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